Rabu, 07 Januari 2015

begin again


took a deep breath in the mirror
he didn't like it when I wore high heels
but i do
turn the lock and put my headphones on
he always said he didn't get this song
but i do, i do

walked in expecting you'd be late
but you got here early and you stand and wave
i walk to you
you pull my chair out and help me in
and you don't know how nice that is
but i do

and you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
i think it's strange that you think i'm funny 'cause he never did
i've been spending the last eight months
thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
but on a Wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again

you said you never met one girl
who had as many James Taylor records as you
but i do
we tell stories and you don't know why
i'm coming off a little shy
but i do

but you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
i think it's strange that you think i'm funny 'cause he never did
i've been spending the last eight months
thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
but on a Wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again

and we walked down the block to my car and i almost brought him up
but you start to talk about the movies that your family watches
every single Christmas and i want to talk about that
and for the first time what's past is past

'cause you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
i think it's strange that you think i'm funny 'cause he never did
i've been spending the last eight months
thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
but on a Wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again
but on a Wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again 

popular by : Taylor Swift


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haaaa~~~ lagilagi Swift. bagin again. memulai kembali. seperti awal. mungkin makna lagu ini akan sedikit menyimpang dari apa yang Taylor sampaikan. untuk saya, ini artinya memulai kembali awal yang baik, untuk sesuatu yang seharusnya sudah sejak dahulu saya lakukan, sesuatu yangs eharusnya tidak membuat saya menahan hati saya begitu lama.

bagaimana mungkin bertahan begitu lama untuk seseorang yang tidak menyukai apa yang membuat kita bahagia? bukankah kita seharusnya bahagia sejak awal, sejak sebelum bertemu, dan sampai kapanpun. i wont cange myself to be someone you want. seseorang yang tidak bisa menerima apa adanya orang lain mana mungkin bisa bertahan bersama? mana mungkin mau bertahan dengan orang yang menjadi pilihan pertama kita sedang kita adalah pilihan kedua atau entah keberapanya?

cinta bukan sekadar siap tidaknya, rasa tidaknya, tapi cinta adalah tentang harga diri.

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