Jumat, 11 April 2014

come back....be here....


it has been two years. almost. right? :)

since you go, since i felt so empty without you.

April, 13rd 2012. on Friday, you passed away. thanks for give me some more time to prepare.

you are the most man i loved in this world. duapuluhlima tahun aku hidup di dunia ini, aku hanya percaya ada dua laki-laki baik di dunia ini. first is my father and second is my bro, seseorang yang aku kenal sejak masa sekolah menengah atas dan aku yakin dia adalah seseorang yang sangat istimewa, we love same football team, we love moon, we love books.

dua hari lagi, dua tahun sudah beliau pergi. seseorang yang sangat aku sayangi di dunia ini. 80 tahun usianya, 23 tahun ada di sampingku, yang menceritakan kisah kancil sebelum aku tidur, bernyanyi, mengabulkan semua permintaan.

bapak.

it has been two years. i still miss you. the most precious man in my life.

if world can make my hope become true. i want you, come back to me.

too many stories i want to share with you. still remember the place you lie beside me when we watched football match together.

you knew i love Liverpool and really adore Stevie G. always jokes about them when you ask me about who i wanna be married with.

i love you. please come back, be here, with me again.


***


you said it in a simple way,
4 AM, the second day,
how strange that i don't know you at all.
stumbled through the long goodbye,
one last kiss, then catch your flight,
right when i was just about to fall

i told myself don't get attached,
but in my mind i play it back,
spinning faster than the plane that took you...

and this is when the feeling sinks in,
i don't wanna miss you like this,
come back... be here, come back... be here.
i guess you're in New York today,
i don't wanna need you this way,
come back... be here, come back... be here.

the delicate beginning rush,
the feeling you can know so much,
without knowing anything at all.
and now that i can put this down,
if i had known what i'd known now,
i never would have played so nonchalant.

taxi cabs and busy streets,
that never bring you back to me,
i can't help but wish you took me with you...

and this is when the feeling sinks in,
i don't wanna miss you like this,
come back... be here, come back... be here.
i guess you're in London today,
i don't wanna need you this way,
come back... be here, come back... be here.

this is falling in love in the cruelest way,
this is falling for you and you are worlds away.

New York... be here.
but you're in London and i break down,
'cause it's not fair that you're not around.

this is when the feeling sinks in,
i don't wanna miss you like this,
come back... be here, come back... be here.
i guess you're in New York today,
and i don't wanna need you this way,
come back... be here, come back... be here.

i don't wanna miss you like this.
come back... be here.
come back... be here.

**popular by : Taylor Swift

***

i feel so lonely altough i have many things to make me happy. but still empty. if you still here, i never be down like now, you will give me strenght, give me more than your love, more than anything in this world. 

can you talk to our Lord, to send me someone who will always take care of me? be there beside me whatever bad things happen to us. someone to mend me, to heal me. someone who will be our angel, who say i more than enough and he really mean it.